saturday

Would it be weird

If I requested that you read what I’ve written recently

Before we hang out?

So you know where I’m at

As soon as I’ve written it down, it’s gone

I guess don’t know

where I’m “at” most of the time

Maybe you can figure it out for me

Should probably tell my therapist that I write

Did you know that every google search

Uses energy

the internet isn’t just out there

There’s a carbon footprint

It makes sense, but I hadn’t thought of it. What has this year of screen time meant for the earth?

I think thoughts are the same

Fun fact: I started writing in this format because the word count is lower

I don’t know if this is poetry, I don’t want to ask anyone

Seeing a lot on twitter about imposter syndrome and feeling dumb.

Sometimes

Music is the only thing I feel

Sometimes even that numbs me

Community trauma

Really takes its toll

I’m not sure if that’s my ptsd or

If it’s my nature

Listening to Eckhart Tolle and Morgan Harper Nichols when the music gets boring and nothing sounds fun

Is this what everyone does? I think this is what my dad does

Wonder what he would look like if he showed his inner world

I haven’t left the house all day

Was I like this before the pandemic?

Why are there still people acting like we aren’t in a pandemic?

Maybe I should’ve just gone to work today

I probably would have if I would’ve known how bored/sad I’d be

Don’t get drawn into one of the polarities

As long as you’re eating well

Sleeping well

Thinking well