You like making tiktoks
You like going live
Your stupid little account got banned
So just start talking again
Hard
I didn’t try last time, it just happened
I just started and it happened
I should just start
Put a finger down
Get to know me
All these trends are stupid
My page is going to look stupid
Just keep writing
you’ll get something good
Maybe
something worth posting
Tried to add my writing link to my bio but apparently that was another community guidelines violation
Add it to the count
(I was able to do it last time, I don’t understand)
Why does my algorithm know me better than I know myself
I guess all these little habits
Tendencies
are here for a reason
Writing this as the animals are eating
Not yet light outside
Maybe I’ll drive.
Too late to get to
the best sunrise spot
maybe tomorrow
Coffee?
Just a drive?
To a park
maybe for a walk?
Getting worried
Refocus
Is the dog bothering me because she wants attention or
because she’s doing her job
Breathe
I think this is called stream of consciousness
I’m not comfortable with you knowing my consciousness’s stream
Feels too exposed
Need to start writing again somehow
How do people get comfortable with their own work?
Would my younger self like this? Or would she laugh at me? Will my older self like this?
If I know myself at all, my older self will look back at this
Smile lovingly
Put a hand on my head
Say,
“You really were doing
your best”
Which is true
But if I could talk back I’d say
“That’s kind of rude
don’t you think”
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