Surrounded I am lonely
my eyes are growing dim
sad
as sad can be right now
is how I feel within
I cant really pinpoint
when it all
went to shit
time has past so quickly
and I cant keep up with it .
I think about the times you spent
laying in my heart
face upon my chest
while being miles apart
I wonder even if the times
we fell fast asleep
with my member deep within you and our undies at our feet
If you ever really cared about
what my heart did say
If you ever really touched the part
that never felt ok
I wonder if its only you
that never felt my love
for the sadness
it is killing me
when push comes to a shove
I blame you for my anger
I blame everybody else
I still remember everything
but I put that on the shelf
beside the books
I will never read
I cant bring myself to look
For if I am a nobody
I will never write that book
You will have the reason
like the others in the past
to make sure that the relationship
was not gunna last .
I will watch the tv
until
The nurse says time for bed
that's if I am not homeless
or if I am not dead
You will cuddle someone
That you don't even really know
Happiness is not for all
This inside I know
Maybe I will write that book
that no one will ever read
will that stop the hate inside
will it feed my greed
Will it make me happy
happier than now
scared I am of trying
and finding out somehow .
About the Creator
Michael Boulatsakos
I am a earth alien that writes ,draws and struggles with all the same issues every other earth alien does .I write about my life and how my mental issues effect the way I see it .I have Bipolar2
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