Red Dawns the Day
Chosen to Fight Against the Tide
I often dream representations of my own life, but often it is personified. I believe this dream was a representation of my time working with youth during the height of what be reflected in the #ChurchToo movement. At the time, I was not aware of the silent evils the kids in my charge were facing. As a female in a field dominated by males, I often was expected to be quiet because I was not as gifted as they were. This has haunted me for years, and this dream/poem is a result of that haunting.
Red Dawns the Day
Red dawns the day
That this, my life, will change.
Not so with those who follow
Not yet touched by age.
Their faces so eager in their
Readiness to slay the beast.
Yet how many will disappear
And their young hearts cease?
I look at myself
in broken glass
I wonder how many more days
Must this crusade last?
Who will we lose,
who will suffer heart’s bruise?
What friend may fall
So that the chosen few
have any chance at all?
My face is old
beyond my years.
And my eyes blackened
By unshed tears
Shoulders too small
to bear a heavy weight
Pinch close together
To stand erect and straight.
I walk outside
into the glaring light.
Wishing the day was done
And I could slumber in the night.
Friends so ready to follow
Wherever I shall lead.
My heart sinks at the futility
Within the soul of me.
I mount my horse with my
Companions to the left and right.
Never asking questions, only trusting,
Ready to die in the fight.
We move toward the enemy
Who swarm over the hill
Writhing, crawling
Ready for their easy kill.
We reached the final
point of no return
And I stepped to earth
As my heart burned.
I drove my sword deep
Into the unloving land
And raised my face toward heaven
Begging to understand.
“Why have you left us
At the mercy of death?
Why do I lead your people
In silence and alone?
How far will you take me
From my distant home?”
And I heard a voice say:
“Your day is not done,
Your course is not run.
The foe still stalks the land
And the victory still is
To be won.”
We raised the cry
And plunged into the throng.
And bravely each man fought
All the day long
Evil came at us from
the left and right.
Each face covering the day
And bringing the terror
Of night.
Blinding heat
Pierces my skin
And colors of hell
Burst from within.
Hot steel in my side
Pierces flesh and bone
I close my eyes and stray
Into the unwanted fear
Of dying on my own.
But he is there again
Offering his bloodied hand.
“Come my child,” said he.
“The battle is not yet won.”
His eyes locked with mine
And mine lowered under his.
“Have I not bled for you?
Been pierced for your sake?
What battle could you ever lose
What heart could ever break?
Victory is already won.
My child, what could you do
That I have not already done?”
He pulled me to my feet
And placed the sword in my hand
And sun of wisdom shone on me
As I began to understand.
In that moment
The battle was done.
For in my faith, I saw
That the battle had always been won.
My comrades carried me
Towards happiness and home.
And as I slept on their shoulders
I basked in what had been shown.
To know that I was chosen
To be the one.
To know the task was finished
before it had begun.
And so, the red day ended
With joy and revelry
As each child danced toward
A new destiny.
And I, their guide
Knew I had passed the test
For I was going home
Where I could at long last find rest.
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