Ptsd

no words just tears and a heart that weeps

feel pain deep inside, usually i can hide

but today it flows like a bleeding vein

like a waterfall

like a drop of rain.

unable to laugh unable to smile

nothing to me seems worthwhile

don't feel like me

I DON'T FEEL LIKE ME !

i feel different as though i'm outside of my body

head bent down as i walk through town

nobody will notice me if my heads kept down

this logic to me keeps me safe

no one can invade my personal space

where am i going? even i don't know

i just needed to leave, just needed to go.

to leave and to walk and to think things through

when i get where i'm getting too ill decide what to do

my body now fails me i can walk no more

I've got to stop, my legs are just too sore

so here i am, my walk must end

and its time to decide how my heart will mend.

do i jump and say goodbye?

let go of all this hurt inside

or do i sit and think this through

because i know its silly i really do.

i don't want to cry and i don't want to die

i just wanna stop these flashbacks in my eyes

every morning every night there you are

in my head and around every corner

i cant get free, i cant run away

you are there to haunt me in every way

i'm trapped i'm trapped

i need to get out

leave me alone

i cant even shout

leave the past in the past is what they all say

not easy to do when you see it every day.