It’s 2AM and all I think about is your arms around me
Your breath fanning against the back of my neck, and
Your soft snores echoing in my small room. It’s only been
One month and already I feel the calm serenity of being
Attached again. I feel the walls of my Jericho tumbling
Down but I do nothing because maybe change is a good thing
And maybe these walls must fall for me to see that within
The rubble of these stone bricks, my foundation was cracked
And unstable. I know it’s only been one month but
Realistically I’m terrified of the future, but with you, it makes
The future a little less daunting. See, for months on end
I’ve felt the cold run through my bones and the future
Was not something I wanted to see into, I wanted to ignore
The calls of my past, warning me that the path I was walking
Down was bad for my soul, bad for my health, bad for my
Existence. Then suddenly, I looked to my left, maybe it’s
Because I had a kink in my neck, or maybe I heard a voice
Calling my name, and there you were, standing in a cloak
Of dark clouds hovering around your head counter clockwise.
I don’t want to seem egotistical, but I feel somewhat of a light
In the dark for you, like I was the sunlight that you desperately
Needed to get through this week. And for me, you were the
Foundation that I so desperately needed because I had built
My castle on a mound of sand. With cracked foundation and
Shattered windows, the wood beams falling down in my brain,
You came in with a sonic screw driver and fixed all the
Problems, and while some may still exist, we ignore them because
How else would we function? When I say you’re my daddy, I don’t
Mean it in a weird way, I mean I trust you with my whole body,
My soul, my existence. I expect you to respect and protect
My dignity, treat me like a princess but keep my in the line that you
Built for me. I want to be asleep and have you wake me up with
Kisses up my back, pulling my hair and telling me to wake. I want
To be the one to tease you while you’re at work, I want you to fully
Understand that me being “smol” isn’t a sexual thing for me, there
Will be days when I am in subspace but I don’t want to be sexual,
I guess when I just want to be taken care of and loved and I want
To snuggle up to your chest and hold onto you because I never want
You to leave me. I want to spend Christmas’s with you, I want to wake
Up to your sleepy eyed, messy haired face because you’re so damn
Cute when you wake up. You’re fucking adorable when you sleep
Because I hate it when you don’t sleep, I hate it when you breathe
Weird because it reminds me of a panic attack and I want you to
Feel safe. And I know that Daddy’s need to be taken care of too,
I promise that I will take care of you, forever and a day.
You are my Clyde, you are my Gomez, you are my Jack Skellington.
You are my sun and my stars. I can be your little doll even if you
Put me on the highest shelf for the rest of our lives, I’ll pose for
The pictures with a porcelain smile.
About the Creator
A. Rose
Sometimes I write, other times I tell a story, it all depends on what lens I have on that day.
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