Poems inspired by Taylor Swifts' Red album
Taken from the vault
All too well
I remember it all too well
The twinkle light trees
The constant lingering
Never having to second guess
Never having to force a thing
The long nights that never seemed long enough
And the permanent dark eyes we wore in exchange for time
The way your hair felt between my fingers
And your unshaven face along my fingertips
I remember the moment I knew I was in trouble
As I remember the last time I saw you
All too well.
“I’ll see you next week,” you said.
But I knew it was the end
And perhaps you did too.
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I almost do
“It would have been good to run into you”
Now I’m playing out the scene in my mind.
Would I hug you hello? Would you be kind?
Would I say something that wouldn’t make sense, be uncomfortable as if I didn’t know you?
As if I didn’t know all your greatest fears and what keeps you up every single night?
Would you still be a stranger, still distant and out of sight?
Or maybe I’d say that I missed you, and you’d say it to.
I’d have the opportunity to say all the things I never said.
Everything that keeps me up every single night
Letters I’ve written but never sent.
Maybe. What if.
But I didn’t run into you, the scene did not show.
So tell me,
How do you get over someone who you never had?
How do you forget things that never happened?
Do you ever stop loving someone who never knew how you felt?
Do you ever learn to forgive yourself for never telling them?
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State of grace
Wine held delicately in my hand,
your electric fingers igniting the current of my own skin
Can we stay like this forever?
With honey dripping from our essence,
while the moon shines the only light, illuminating in fluorescence
I make a wish for eternity
I have only experienced love to be tragic
Never quite declared an epic love affair
Nevertheless, always magic
Somehow, I think you and I will mirror a dramatic classic
The tornado inspiring fusion of both
Rising and falling all at once
I pause there, midway thought
Curled up in your lap
Our bodies remain tangled atoms dancing,
and our souls?
They are nostalgic for the now
The present moment portal
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Treacherous
No one ever talks about breaking your own heart.
It’s self-sabotage in the simplest definition
It’s envisioning a future that was not promised
It’s being too sure, misplacing your trust and hope in another who never planned to hold it.
Its assumptions, exaggerations
misconceptions
Until the other tears it all down and you see it for what it really is.
What it had been all along,
A wishful illusion
~
Better man
The art of begging someone to care
The destruction of one’s self when doing so
You were not worth my shards
That lay beneath your feet
Begging to be resurrected by you
It’s clear you will not give your time
To safeguard, my child-like heart
So, it’s my time
To sweep up the remnants, collect my dignity
To promise myself,
Never will I ever lay broken below another’s grasp
A real lover will not need to be begged for
~
Everything has changed
“Please tell me if I’m crushing you”
He kindly pleads as the weight of his head sits on my right thigh.
I watch mesmerized as he continues to trace lines with his fingertips along my Goosebumps.
Amused, I soothe,
“Shh, you’re not”
His long caramel hair sliding between my fingers a small smile enters my lips.
My ears perk up to murmured conversations humming beyond the walls, but we sit in silence, simply indulging in each other.
You’re not on my mind. Shockingly.
No, as he lays on my lap, I do not reminisce about how you also did the same, all those months ago.
When he calls me perfect, the memory of the first time you told me that briefly arises, I allow it, I acknowledge it, but it does not affect me.
I am not crippled when he tells me my skin is so beautiful & soft, as you have repeated.
No, I am completely & utterly present with him, the past of you does not belong here.
I am ready to love again.
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Begin again
Hopeless love shadowing the delight of Milan
In the same room, our hearts live nations apart
And I am sure, this is it
The beginning, the end
There will never be another
Anyone like him
Time feels as though it freezes
Moving on seems unthinkable
Be honest, you don’t want to
You keep him alive on your pages,
as you drift further from his thoughts
One year later,
I’m on the phone with a new man
One I love so deeply
Yet not hopelessly
Because one year later,
I have been gifted with being loved in return
He calls to tell me
I am the best thing to happen to him
And I realize now,
Love will never leave my life
Yet I wish this one to stay for a while longer
So much can change in a year
Healing has been in the works
Life has turned a new leaf and its crystal green
although I know, change is bound to happen
I catch myself thinking
I am sure,
This is it
About the Creator
Amelia Michels
Poetry & Prose, but definitely excerpts from my journal
Instagram @amelia.michels
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