Petals

I tore off your petals.

Shoved them in my throat.

I choked and choked and choked

Until I managed to swallow down

The poison in the pretty pink petals of you.

.

I went back for the seeds,

Plucked them from you too.

They filled my stomach, infiltrated my blood,

Turned something in me sour and rotten,

Then bloomed with their fatal poison.

.

I hallucinated that you loved me.

The colors were vibrant.

Sweet on my tongue like hibiscus,

Soft in my belly like soup,

The world was pretty again.

.

And you were the prettiest.

A blooming flower amidst a field of thorns.

I waded into the violent sea,

Turned crimson from the waterfall down my flesh

But the injuries didn't land in my reality.

.

Because I was hallucinating

Pretty little dreams of you.

I was plucking your petals,

Eating your essence whole

And letting those poison seeds do their work.