Perfectly

** Disclaimer: Some of the poetry in this series may contain references to self-harm and suicide as well as strong language. All work is written by me from 2009-2012, ages 15-18. Some can be found in my book, Memories of a Troubled Teen by Paige Guffey, available on Amazon. **

***These are written before I had an official and accurate diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder and Bipolar 2. These are representative of my life, thoughts, and feelings during this time. ***

I fell so hard,

The day you let me go.

I went spinning out of control,

Til I crashed into the ground,

So fast that I didn’t see it coming.

This world, it isn’t fair.

This house, it’s a nightmare.

Tell me, why did you let me go?

Why did you push me to the floor?

How could you do that to me?

How could you not see?

That all I wanted was for her to leave me be,

To know the love of a father.

But it’s okay, don’t bother.

I understand, you can’t love me

When you spend everyday…

Trying to live perfectly.