I hurt myself again today,
I allowed you to build me back up far past what I’ve built myself
I hurt myself again.
I built a door in my walls and allowed you to walk through
I broke rules
I suspended the notion that i don’t deserve to have happiness
I shed the cloak that hid me from the deciders of karma
I built this idea of some fairytale in my mind
I lost focus of myself and let you give me butterflies again.
I locked them up such a long time ago, i was certain they all died and wouldn’t reanimate
But here i am, with a stomach full of beautifully struggling creatures creating knots
I hurt myself again.
I believed you were the one i had to take the chance with
I betrayed myself again
I allowed you to become part of my still beating heart.
I hurt myself again when i believed the beautiful things you said i was.
About the Creator
Sid l.c
Writing the things i stay up all night thinking about. Just trying to figure things out.
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