My Wings = My Soul.
“My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies.” // Freddie Mercury (Queen), The Show Must Go On
My wings are still off a butterfly;
Fragile & frail,
Yet, now somehow resilient & strong without fail.
Because I’m still alive and breathing.
When I look up at the stars,
I’m at awe and amazed.
And I somehow don’t feel alone looking at millions of them.
I’ve always suspected them to be angels in disguise growing up.
Last year has been a year of growing and aching.
A year of gaining and loosing friends.
I must learn to look back at it as a year of learning.
But I’ve sadly had a huge loss of my creative self.
Never mind about rejections and breakups from boys that I wouldn’t last with,
While those do hurt a lot, I stopped caring as if it’s now a temporary thing to let go.
After few years including that year, I lost my imaginations, creativity, and some perspectives that are of a soul such as myself and everybody.
I’ve gained a lot of those after the traumatic loss of my dad.
They’ve painfully & slowly burned off of my soul.
Replacing them with nothingness and trying desperately to hold on to what keeps me going.
I’m not one to blame anybody but I can count up to 5 people I blame that exact huge loss on.
Not my dad, because I remembered how and why
But my energy & creativity.
For my grief and anger are now in the colors of hell.
This year I’m learning to get myself out of hell I’ve been living with.
A brilliant singer once sang “my soul is painted like the wings of butterflies.”
As I see that I’m using my wings.
Not an angels wing, mind you.
For my wings are and have been of a butterfly.
Fragile & frail
And yet are now resilient and strong, without fail.
Thanks to my Heavenly Parents & my Savior.
But me telling this isn’t the end at all.
It is and will forever be a work of progress. The beautiful thing is that I don’t ever have to wait to be happy and loved at the journey’s end.
~Christina C.~
About the Creator
Christina C
Creativity run through my veins,
Nostalgia runs though my mind
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@lds.indie97
@indie.wildflower.creative
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