Why Can't I Be Enough?

"You're absolutely gorgeous,"

"Mija, you're stunning,"

"You look so much like your mom,"

"The guys will go after you."

"You're the sweetest and most kind,"

"You'll be getting a lot of looks from guys,"

"You're so beautiful,"

"You're so amazing,"

But why can't I be enough for a love interest that went after me already to stay?

I'm tired of going in circles of constant first dates and empty promises of those I genuinely liked.

My tiredness looks like disappointment, tears constantly running down my face, while getting headaches and my eyes swelling and hurting from heartbreak.

Wondering, battling what I have done wrong or what I could've done differently constantly.

You'd think I should be used to the hurt, the empty promises, and going all in circles like a knot...

The honest truth is that I'm really not.

My wings are of a butterfly,

Frail and fragile.

Never been an angel wing,

Strong and intimidating.

~Christina C.~