Miserable

MISERABLE

I look at myself, loser.

What I feel when I think, loser.

What can I do, nothing, loser.

I can’t support myself, let alone my family, because I’m a loser.

Fallen into deep depression, even more so a loser.

My heart races, my body gets hot, why am I such a fucking loser?!

Reminiscent of my father, loser?

How did it come to this? LOSER!

Thoughts of making it all go away, but that’s much to selfish.

I can’t leave my kids or wife…WOW…loser.

I don’t deserve my family, nor do they deserve a loser.

Disappointment, I see disappointment in my wife’s face, misunderstanding in my kids…

FUCKING LOSER.

What a loser father, such a disappointment;

“Daddy…language.”

Can’t even hold my tongue, feel like a bum, what the fuck?!

Getting upset for no reason, losing my temper,

Hindsight’s 20/20, I had a little helper.

Snapping in reactions to the littlest of things,

My patience diminishing daily,

Feelings of ignorance, stupidity, and failure.

Resentment lingering over my shoulder