Loving the Ghost
A long-thought out piece about finding a different kind of love, the on-and-off again love for oneself and one's existence.
Every night you find yourself-
feet cemented to that one spot so long
they’ve left imprints in the carpet.
Days and weeks long since turned into
too many years to count,
come and gone in a haze,
each spent locked in a staring contest
with the ghost.
Two pairs of eyes fixated with longing.
Translucent snakes slither down
skin pale as moonlight.
They’re wiped away by shaking hands
that reach out and scratch the dark,
until the sun rises again,
and you have to hit the surface and breathe.
18 years,
and the ghost finally moves.
A hint of a smile,
as those eyes meet.
They follow each other up
towards a mind filled with endless worlds,
then down at the hands
that weave their legends into reality.
Further down to feet that glide across the floor
in a tango with demons and yet still walk
across planes of shadows until they find
their way towards the light again, day in
And day out and day in again.
18 years,
Until you finally realize what love is, my dear.
I cannot apologize enough to you,
That it took so long to see it.
That you sacrificed your life
To keep yourself alive.
That it took a lifetime to finally be able
To look across the floor with a smile.
18 long years,
Until you could reach out to that smooth,
Pristine glass with war-torn, tired hands,
And see the beauty in the ghost staring back.
22 years,
And sometimes the ghost stands still again.
Eyes, though frozen, search for any inkling
of that longing from before,
and you feel every smile fade into a memory.
Every ounce of warmth is overcome by winter.
The snakes stop slithering and freeze,
glued to the moonlight on your cheeks,
and ice overtakes your lungs
Because you felt the high of love,
over and over again.
But over and over again
you fall from grace into the pits of detest.
They say that love can take your breath away.
That when you see that special person,
it’s like you’ve become a fish out of water.
Heartache does the same.
When you stare at all that everything around you has become.
When you can’t remember the light in your eyes
outside of a photograph.
When your body feels like a thousand piece puzzle
with about 600 missing, forever left unsolved.
When you remember every dream you had,
turned to dust in the midst of a harsh, invisible reality.
But each day,
you will open your eyes,
stare down that ghost
and your breath will leave your lungs,
over and over again.
Whether you’ve finally remembered
what that first moment of love felt like,
or you’ve simply realized
you’re in love with the fact
that there is even a ghost staring back at all.
About the Creator
Lizzy Rose
Hello! I'm Lizzy, a poet and fiction/fantasy writer. I've been creating fiction since I was a child, making up and acting out stories. I started writing my stories when I was 9, and poetry when I was 11!
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