little things i’ll learn to live without
The freckle on his ear…
Driving on a dirt road
The way he hummed only the bass line to songs
Getting high in my brothers tshirt
The way he knows when to cuddle and when to let me sleep
The freckle on his ear
The restaurant with the honey butter
Stargazing on the silo
His long eyelashes
The time we almost eloped
Snow angels in corn kernels
Running my fingers through his hair
The time he held my hair back when i threw up
Hearing his shower podcast each morning
The breakfast he made me
Playing video games with his brother
The joke about peg legs he probably forgot
The way he said "damn"
The trips to the golf course
The bulldozer he drove that one time when he definitely wasn't supposed to
His tattoos
The sound of his laugh
His love for his family
Sitting on his kitchen counter
The bird noises he makes
His extremely clean bathroom
The redneck fires he built
The way we waited for that can to explode
They way it never did
Giving his dog a bath
His fascination with snakes
Watching him get ready for work
The way “fucking" was really making love
The way I was proud that he was mine.
The way he let me drive away
The way he fell asleep during my panic attack
Avoiding talking about him to friends because i know what they'll say
The way he stopped taking me on dates
Work being more important than me
The soup I never got when I was sick
Him refusing to call me his girlfriend
The cruel text messages
The way he hated Taylor swift
The time he threw a remote at his dog
Being ignored for days on end
The way he stopped getting to know me
My mom being right
The way he spoke about his exes
My playlist for him being “too sappy”
The birthday gift I never got
When he said that he never treats girls this way
The cuts I left for him to see
The way he ignored them
Him refusing to talk about his emotions
Walking home from his house before he woke up
Waking up to see he slept on the couch
The way my suicidal behavior was "ridiculous "
Begging him to stay so I wouldn't hurt myself
Hurting myself because he wouldn't stay
Him not caring about people hurting me
The way he never posted pictures of me
Or took pictures with me
Him not caring if I went out with other guys
The way he told me to just stop being sad
Him not caring if I came back
The way his brother laughed when I did
Knowing he's okay without me
Feeling like I had to die to make him care
Him insisting that things would change
The way he wasn't proud that I was his
The way he isn't proud that I still am.
About the Creator
Joann Claude
“I'm not sure why
I have the inexplainable urge
To tell everyone I come in contact with
That I'm dying”
-a million thoughts all at once after a brief interaction with a customer at work
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