It's Me Not You

Wake up in the morning not wanting to move

Tossing and turning don’t know what to do

I know how I’m supposed to feel but I bring myself to you

Still stuck on my mind girl like glue

Under the covers my demons hold me to

But I can’t carry on I’m lost in blues

Trapped and I’m locked up the key gone but my feeling for you still linger on

Different scenarios pass by as I try to figure out why?

In my mind we could be happy talking but instead I’m blocking

Can’t keep up with these emotions, there’s no talking

You’re a memory dancing in my mind but you’re a con

'Cause nothing was real I was just a pawn

I got people waiting for me to carry on

Carry on like nothing happened as if you were gone

But I can’t carry on I’m lost in the blues

All I can think about is how I should love you

You can try to drag me on but there’s no hitting snooze

I was used, mistreated, hated for many reasons

Still trying to find myself I might choose

To let you go before you could be of use

My mind is a canvas of darkness with no artist

You could try to paint the white but the black will bleed through

I just wanna smile, smile with you

Be genuinely happy, only being us two

We both lay in bed wanting to break through

A wall that we built up too soon, protecting us from each other we don’t know what to do

Take a risk and leap in, is love myth that happened to slip in

I know what I want but I can’t feel what I thought

Can you carry on with me, if not just be free like the bird I wish to be.