still
stuck in the background
quiet. Shhh!
don’t make a sound
alone in the world
no phone calls
text? No
i like my peace
but
I need more
more than this shot to soothe me
More than this blunt
More than these pills
More than a quick ride
these cheap thrills
More than a brisk walk or 30 minute workout
More than the kiss of death to make me forget whatever fight I’m currently fighting.
More than his voice
More than his embrace
I’ll need more than meditation to soothe my soul
Everything bad feels so good
Now I’m racing again
I know you won’t understand
How nothing comforts me
How nothing calms me
Why must everything ruffle me?
Why must everything entice me?
I’ll need more than this shot to soothe me.
More than this blunt, more than these pills.
More than a quick fuck , but that orgasm was much needed.
More than my blood tainted.
More than my face painted.
I’ll need more than some mask to hide what I’m feeling.
More than this cloak.
More than this coat.
My physical being right here before you.
My mental, emotional, psychological being in outer space.
I’ll need more than these drugs to soothe me.
I just need to spread my wings, fly free.
Let me be me.
Untamed, wild, raw, everything they said I wouldn’t be.
Everything they said I couldn’t be.
Everything they said I shouldn’t be.
I need more than these drugs to soothe me.
Because once the high is gone, I need more drugs.
Once the high is gone, I feel more pain.
Once the high is gone, I feel more tears.
My pillows wet while the high disappears in the night leaving me feeling cold and empty.
I need more than these drugs to soothe me.
More than this liquor to warm me.
More than these pills to hold me.
More than this weed to calm me.
I need more than these drugs to soothe me !!!
About the Creator
Kate Marie
I find release in writing. This next year, come learn who I am and how I’ve grown. New post every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday! Maybe something I’ve been through can help you grow too!
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