I Leave With Grace

Acceptance is not necessarily within the definition of defeat,

Or so I’ve discovered in recent years,

I’ve grown to learn the lessons you sent my way,

And I’ve had to work my way through my regrets and fears.

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Lately I’ve been asking myself if I’d like it to change,

And although I fought to keep the status quo,

I grieved the loss, lived the pain,

And believed it was devastating to see you go.

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But I’ve grown to realise I am okay with your decision,

And no, I don’t want it changed or fixed in any way,

Our time has come, you’ve flown the coop,

And I’ve truly no more that I want to say.

**

So your silence over another holiday weekend meant for family,

Wasn’t as hard to live through as in the past,

You’ve taught me how to live my life without you,

And the loaded die has now been cast.

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My job has been fulfilled, I taught you independence,

I gave you my strength to walk away,

I instilled your confidence to overcome adversity,

And ensured that without me, you’ll be okay.

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I’ll quietly disappear now, it’s my final gift,

I’ve accepted the break, the ties now cut,

I feel guilty when I realise I’ve gained my newfound peace,

As more often than not you were a pain in the butt.

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As the circle of life continues to spin,

You’re about to undergo the stage I endured for years,

And I can only hope and pray it’s an easier transition,

One in which you don’t experience my flood of tears.

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Although I feel you’ll come to finally understand,

Because trust me, karma does indeed bite,

But you’re now on your own — your personal choice,

And I’m now happily bowing out of this fight.

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