I Hate You Sometimes, My Love
Sometimes You Are Hard To Love
Sometimes you are hard to love
Making me wish I could admire and love you from afar
But I can’t
Because of our type of union and the years we’ve been through
Somedays you seem to understand my flaws
And other days they’re the reason you’re sick and tired
You ask me to be open up to you
Only for you to stab me, using my mistakes as your dagger
Striping me naked
Repeating my tales, I hate to tell
Keeping bookmarks on chapters I hope never to read
Sometimes you are hard to love
Because you don’t realise the parts of me
That probably make it hard to love me
Mirror yours
Are we hypocrites? Hating ourselves in each other
You are hard to love sometimes
Because nothing is ever good enough
It’s always should’ve, could’ve, must’ve and but
But I did it with all my heart
Most days you appreciate what I did
And others you slam it into the wall
And tell me others are doing it better
Maybe it’s constructive criticism and I am just self-destructive
Sometimes you spit venom on me
Even though you know I'm not immune
Sometimes I return the favor
We go back and forth
Till I’m tired
And you win
You always win
I let you win
I’ve started playing along
Playing the game of “Let’s see who will apologize first”
And no one does
Its a tie
On days when our pride has taken some days off
We do apologize
But we both backhandedly accept the apology
Why are we like this?
I hate that I want to hurt you sometimes
How can I love and hate someone all at the same time
It must be that thin line that starting to look invisible
It's hard to love you
Because I can't help but think
You have no choice but to love me
Like you’re stuck with me
Like you wish I was someone else
Trust me when I say
I wish I could dress up for you
Dressing up as all the characters you wished I was
But it would be exhausting
And I’m already exhausted
However, I love you more than I hate you
I love you, I always say this
You don’t respond or Tell me I’m lying
And sometimes I wish I was
I’m sorry Im not your cup of tea
But you have to take sips and gulps
Because I am what’s currently in stock
I guess its true what they say “The hardest to love are the hardest to leave”
And I know I’m hard to love too…
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Comments (1)
This seems to be a very toxic relationship. It's so sad 🥺