I don’t know how to tell you
But
I don’t do so well
When the darkness engulfs me
Like flames licking at the
Alter of a church
Doused in diesel.
I don’t think I can tell you
But
I’m struggling
With every breath I take
Into these hollow lungs that
Lay in my aching rib cage -
Already sick of protecting them
And their unwanted oxygen.
I don’t want you to know
But
I feel broken
In the most literal sense of the word -
I feel physically torn apart
By everything and everyone
But most of all by myself
And all my expectations.
I’m heartbroken to tell you
But
I feel unlovable
And utterly unwanted
And only worth as much as my body
That’s been used almost as much
As my mind.
And I think you already know
But…
I love you
With every fiber of my broken heart
And I’m terrified
That you’ll be the death of me
Because you don’t feel the same
And if you did, I wouldn’t deserve it.
About the Creator
Ava Myers
I write because my pens give me no other choice.
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