Instructions: Complete Before Beginning
you have to act like everything is okay
He says he wishes he could write like me
as if it’s a skill to be taught and learned,
as if it’s something I didn’t sacrifice for,
break every bone in my body for,
spill my own worthless blood for.
Everyone knows that
if you wish for the talent of a broken being,
you must follow in their footsteps
and if you wish to write like me
you must comfort your mother
over the open casket of her sons, then
cut open your thighs with a razor blade
until your soul is as dead as your father, and
scrub your skin until its raw, sobbing in the shower,
until you can no longer smell the cologne
of the most recent man who didn’t take “no” for an answer.
You must scream at a headstone on your knees
in the pouring rain in the middle of a cemetery
then then get up and walk away like it was nothing,
like you feel absolutely none of it.
You have to act like everything is okay,
and be sure that you can spend your life making jokes
so that others aren’t bothered by your trauma, and
stare at yourself in the mirror
until you see no one you recognize
and then, only then,
should you pick up a pen and maybe, just maybe
you’ll write like me.
About the Creator
Ava Myers
I write because my pens give me no other choice.
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