Hello My Old Friend

I literally ran into a very old friend today

The timing could not have been more perfect,

I didn’t realise how much I needed to see her

Until seeing her had such a profound effect.

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I regret the time and years we have spent apart

As she is my complete personality opposite,

She’s so much more fun to hang around with

She’s the life of the party and totally immoderate.

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She has a huge ego, nobody can best her

She doesn’t have a filter, who cares who gets hurt,

Don’t stand in her way, she’ll walk right over you

Kindness, forget it, she’ll happily treat you like dirt.

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She’s dark, cruel and absolutely totally heartless

She will laugh at my pain, angry at my naivety,

I expect her lectures and she doesn’t disappoint

She has taught me better and hates my passivity.

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She’s tough, resilient, hurtful and bossy to boot

I’d forgotten her lesson, kindness does not pay,

She helps me welcome the darkness, my strength

Reminding me to party hard but never stay.

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She flirts from lover to lover, leaving a world of pain

She’s learnt that none of them can be trusted,

Moving on before they can beat her down

Looking over her shoulder, totally disgusted.

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She hates my optimistic views, my never ending hope

She berates me for my softness, my loving heart,

I allow her blackened personality to rub off on me

And I accept her help to turn my heart hard and dark.

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Whereas I’m usually all about living, laughing

Dancing, loving, kindness, empathy bestowed,

My old friend is more about raising, aiming

Firing, maiming, hurting, killing and then reload.

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She has always had my back, lends me her strength

She turns up at opportune times and helps me survive,

I beat myself up constantly for loosing contact

As with her by my side I couldn’t help but thrive.

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I’ll not let her disappear from my life again

As she’s done me a huge favour arriving today,

I’ve been recently reminded my way of living

My softness, my kindness, will only see me pay.

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I’m no longer interested in love or playing nice

I need her to teach me the way of the darkness,

I love her cruelty, her devil may care attitude

I have every intention in mimicking her hardness.

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She truly inspires me with her strength, her wildness

She has so much more fun, life to her is a game,

I’m going to become an avid student, her best yet

As I take notes and learn to take, hurt and maim.

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These are all lessons she has taught me before

You see, she’s actually my living and breathing duality,

My darkness, my cruelty, my revenge, my grudge

She is my polar opposite but she’s still totally me!

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