Happy

I remember being happy

When the world was rosy and new

I remember being happy

All smiles and morning dew

The world was big and bright

And life made perfect sense

I remember being happy

Once

And then life turned left

I remember finding happy

When darkness held its sway

I remember finding happy

Amongst the bitterness and decay

He came into my life like the hero of my dreams

Turned into my nightmare, throwing out the key

I remember finding happy

Once

When I left anyway

I remember building happy

From the wreckage of my life

I remember building happy

Amidst and the wonderings and whys

I found purpose in my flames

And anger in my veins

And I reforged myself Happy

I would never be the same

I remember easy happy

Once

I found my way

I remember easy happy

And the friends that came to stay

And life seemed to make more sense

When I wasn’t searching for the way

I remember easy happy

Alone and soaring high

I remember feeling happy

I remember how it passed

As new days turned to old days

And months bled into years

I remember feeling happy,

Hopeful, true

I remember feeling happy

Happy to wait for you

Now I wonder what I remember

Happy to feel like at all

I’m tired of waiting

I’m tired of searching

I’m tired of it all

But some days, every now and then I think I do remember

I remember feeling happy

I remember believing in you