I remember the day I decided to trust
It’s the same day I fell in love
Not with a him, not with a face
But with a reality and I felt at peace and with grace
I had sewed up my heart with a golden string
A string drenched with a mistrust so great
Because I never knew love existed
A love that covered over mistakes
One that didn’t superimpose my black and grey
How I have to hide the realization that again it’s distain
But I fell in love
I fell in love
I fell in love with the feeling
The joy, the laughter, the fall, the rise, the hoping, the praying, the bitter demise, the strengthening, the reckoning, the breaking the dying, and ultimately pain that lead to even more crying but
Here at the precipice, the edge I’ve made it too
I see a light
A light
In a darkened moment I feel alive
I’m living
God I’m living
The inner child is screaming
She’s finally giving this new life a meaning
So who cares
Stay in this life or don’t
I held a requiem for the soul
She tells me it’s just a revolving door
Emotions come and go, people come and go, life takes a toil
A burden on my soul
But that’s what makes it beautiful
This crown of thorns has been adorned with a rose
And the feeling of pain doesn’t really sting anymore
I think I’ve almost risen above it all
I fell in love with life and I realized it’s alright
It’s alright to fall apart knowing at the start the absence of scars meant I hadn’t learned life
I hadn’t learned love
I hadn’t learned grace
And at the end of the day, I never truly knew pain
And I’m ok
That power is not mine
And it carries this body through space and time
And I realize the very essence of my soul is not mine
It’s a belief I’ve carried with me since I was nine
It’s the ebbing
It’s the growth
It’s the letting people go
It’s the truth
It’s the tale
It’s the battle we continue to prevail
So what’s next
Another lie, another life, another trial, another time, another smile hiding disaster, or a Gem that is adored just like an aster
My life is like a quiet disaster
But it’s a canvas painted by the masters
So beautiful
But so imperfect
With every brush stroke covering my surface
I feel the pressure
I feel the desire
I feel my sins like a burning like fire
But it’s ok
I’ve become friends with my pain
With my scars
With my flaws
And I’m ready in this moment
I’m prepared for the fall
Not for a love to catch me
Not for the ground to engulf me
But for the faith I have to carry me on the cross breeze
Carry me through this desert to the oasis that awaits
Because the love I looked for could only be given by his saving grace
About the Creator
VT
Where words fail my poetry speaks…
and I’m really not good at speaking.
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