Why can't feelings be controlled?
Control in the sense that I
can dictate who my heart falls for.
~
So many times the gut feeling hits
or the eyes catch the subtle hints
and my mind will just know... you
don't share the same sentiments.
~
Yet I continue down road,
max speed, even though I'm fully aware
the pavement ends at an expansive ocean.
~
Truly putting thought into it,
I am a sucker for the pretty thing called "fate".
A simple faith that an other-worldly... something
has created someone who could love me
in all my strange habits and twisted views.
~
Blinded by romance stories, my heart
is continually driven to ruins but my fallacies
are another conversation for another time.
~
Having command to just... stop.
No longer being guided by love
and no longer drowning in the pool
called Romance? Infatuation? Passion?
Love? That sounds like a dream.
~
But will the emptiness left in its wake
hurt more than just experiencing heartbreak?
People do say that ignorance is bliss but also
that curiosity killed the cat and yet, why
does death sound more tempting than ignorance?
~
It's silly, I'm aware, that the same person
who wanted to have autonomy over feelings
would still fall for the same mistakes
even after all the excuses because just maybe...
there'll finally be a "you" that will break
the clouds and let the sun into the bleak world.
~
So let me fall time and time again
like the fool who never learns.
Chasing that something or well
in this case someone, wherever
they are, until they appear
like a miracle and stand by me
in all my scars and with all
the baggage that follows behind
as we look at each other and just
smile happily in love.
About the Creator
A. Nguyen
A writer at heart who wants to share my works. I want to evoke emotion in people when they read my writing but I won't ever know if I can, if I don't put anything out into the world so this is my first step :)
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