Why did you spend the night with me?
Why did you pull my arms around you?
I’m in pain.
I am constantly in pain.
Why can’t I stop thinking about you?
This is my life now, and I don’t think it will ever change.
Everything around me moves, but I always stay the same.
The way that I’m living is getting really fucking lame.
I must be completely honest with you, I am terrified to start over with someone new.
Terrified to let them in.
Terrified to let someone get close again.
I don’t want to explain my tattoos to someone new.
Or all my scars.
I don’t want to talk about my day to someone who isn’t you.
They wouldn’t understand.
They wouldn’t listen.
They never do.
If I could forget you, I would.
It’s a sad thought, but I feel like it would be easier on both of us.
If only it were that simple.
I often get pains where my heart should be.
Maybe that’s because it’s missing, or maybe it’s the nicotine.
My mom would be really disappointed in me.
I know that I am.
I really want to hold you.
I am so sick of every day that I go without it.
I still have those fucking fish that you wanted.
I’m really glad that we didn’t adopt a kitten, now.
I am such a fucking idiot.
I’ll never fully understand why I decided to go.
Or say the things that I said.
Anger always has a way of destroying everything.
I finally got your scent out of my room.
I’d do anything to have it back.
I’m going out to dinner with a girl you know, tomorrow.
She’s a nice girl, but I don’t want to go.
I want it to be you.
I gross myself out all the time.
Weed never makes me sleep when I want to sleep.
It’s fucking frustrating.
Everything is fucking frustrating without you here.
I fucking hate it.
I hate this.
I hate not knowing you.
I hate everything, anymore.
I’m really fucking tired.
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