Drinking Again—This poem was inspired by my childhood, growing up with an alcoholic mother.
She has been drinking again
Throwing things again
Yelling again
Going in the worst downwards spiral ever
It is sorrowful
Too see her raging
Upset
Half dead
All drunk
The next day she sleeps
With her head in her hands
Crying to herself for yelling
Asking for forgiveness
Which we give
Because she is our mother and it makes us cry when she is sad
Because we will never really understand the power of addiction
She swears to never drink again
We don't believe her
Yet we say okay
The next day there she is with a drink in her hand
She says that she'll only have one
Later that night she's throwing up in the toilet
Crying for me to help her
Running towards her
Helping her up
Play mother for the time being
Seeing her fall asleep in her bed with tissues everywhere
Crying to myself because I shouldn't have to do this
Yet i do
Every day for six years
I wake up in the middle of the night to her yelling for me thinking
She's been drinking again
I am particularly proud of this one because of the truth and love that it holds. The love is there because no matter what my mother does to me, I will always do this for her, lie for her, cry with her, yell for her. The truth of the matter is that I did have to do this, over and over again.
My love—My thoughts beginning this one were revolved around one person. All my feelings needed to come out and this was what did.
My feelings of being in love with you
Are all there
Wanting to be close to you all the time
Heart fluttering at all the right moments
Head spinning at the glimpse of you near
All my thoughts utilized by you
Notions of if you are thinking about me
Excitement running through my veins.
Nervous waves of enthusiasm
Enthusiasm because
I know I love you
Nervous because
I can't seem to say the words
Yet being with you is uncomplicated
Enjoyable
Loving
I’ve been a little envious
I see the way some girls look at you
Like you shouldn’t be with someone like me
Yet you are
Peculiar how that works.
The idea for my future,
Involves only you
My love,
I am scared to death that I am going to lose you.
It is astonishing just how much I feel for you.
-Kialeigh Jason
I love this person I am talking about in this poem with my entire heart and soul. Knowing he is there for me, makes my entire life worthwhile. I thought he deserved to know this too.
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