Qu'est ce-que c'est?
Je déteste ça.
I feel like I'm
standing on the edge of
a precipice,
and there is roaring water
underneath, with
distant thunder and darkness
threatening to engulf me.
My connections seem tenuous.
The air feels very thin up here.
I'm grasping at straws - reeds that
seem likely to break - and
the truth seems so nebulous;
there are so many arrows
pointed at me,
and I wonder who is on my side.
But what terrifies me is the
silence - the silence
of everything around me, this
invisible demon.
The silence of betrayal,
the silence of an epidemic,
the silence of the Evil Banality of
Misogyny,
the silence of patriarchy.
These white-masked, uninvited intruders
all beckon me, tempting me to
feel lesser or smaller than
what I really am worth,
what I really am meant for.
But Toni Morrison said that
to fly, I have to "let go of the
shit that weighs me down."
So I let go.
I take tentative steps,
as a babe
and let go of my
fears, the doubts,
the lies,
all the voices that
try to tell me
I'm not good enough,
that "I'm this" or "I'm that,"
and I fall onto a bed of clouds,
soft and inviting like
KSJ or JJK's voice,
angelic and quiet,
reminding me to keep going,
nudging me because
this world is NOT
what I can see with my eyes
but what I can feel with my heart,
discern with my spirit,
and shape with my words
and my actions - guiding me
into an Evermore that is not
measured by the yardsticks of this
world, but is created and built
with my heart, mind and soul -
fire.
About the Creator
Susan Lee
I graduated from Stanford University in 2002 with a BA in International Relations and a minor in Psychology and have a Masters in International Affairs from Georgetown University.
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