Came With No Directions

I really did try; yes

I even broke down and cried.

Being a mama was all I ever wanted to do.

Then when both of you were born, I fell in love with you.

I stayed up nights, singing you a song.

I even made up words, for I always got them wrong.

I loved to dress you up in what I thought was cool.

Yet you look back and tell me, mama, that was cruel.

When I took ill, you both were mad at me.

Trust me, sweet child; it wasn't the way it was supposed to be.

I wished I could have changed everything for you.

Yet I had no control; there was nothing I could do.

Now you're grown up, still looking at me with hate.

I'm trying my best, but is it too late?

I knew you were young and could never understand.

It wasn't like a bandaid I could put on your hand.

Let it go; live life the best way it ever could be.

Because your mama loves you even more, I hope you hear that from me.

Illness, either physical or mental can cause so much for children to ever understand. Please always listen to your children, talk to them. Help them to understand. Fear is terrible and can make one ill. Please take a moment, drop everything and just be there. Most of all hug them and tell them you love them with all your heart.