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Cacoethes
Forsaking who we are, blending in goes too far
I want to sew my eyes shut
Don't want to see things
That would break my heart
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I want to sew my eyes shut
Don't want the tears to flow
When something breaks my heart
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I want to sew my ears shut
Don't want to hear things
That would break my heart
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I want to sew my heart shut
Don't want to feel intense emotions
When something breaks my heart
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I want to rip my heart and soul out
Don't want to feel anything
Impervious to things that break my heart
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Why does my heart break
Overflows with empathy
When I see someone tristful
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Why do I do everything I can
In my power to help them
Only for them to discard me after use
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I fit in with everyone
A shapeshifting puzzle piece
A cheap knock-off
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I'm their ladder to reach the top shelf
Their car to reach their destination
Their utensils to enjoy their food
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I'm just a catalyst
Standing outside, always looking in
A cacoethes to belong
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Comments (135)
Dharrsheena, be thou not tristful for thou art a shining soul, a beacon to those lost and floundering in the night. As your blacklight shines forth from your literary works, your heartlight illuminates the path beneath. Nice work.
Interesting and delicious content, keep posting more.
Using the metaphor of ladder and car is an excellent essence of helping each other without the intention of own benefit.
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Your words evoke a profound sense of longing. The desire to disconnect from the pain of heartbreak is understandable, yet it also speaks to the depth of your capacity to feel deeply. The metaphor of the shapeshifting puzzle piece is a poignant reflection on the struggle to find one's place in the world. Great job mate! Many thanks for sharing!
I can definitely relate to this, sad as it is. You have a way with words! Beautifully written piece
A people pleaser, always so giving and adaptable. And the view of themselves where they see that they are withered and battered... only to still be the on the outside of it all. Saddening. Aw, let's invite them in!
A very emotive piece of writing. Leaves one to reflect for a while. My reflection: Heartache SUCKS!
WOW..
My favorite part: "I'm just a catalyst Standing outside, always looking in A cacoethes to belong" Great writing, heartfelt!
Really good poem, I can definatly relate. Great job
This is so beautiful! One of my favorite pieces I’ve read!
Dear Creator of the year, I a humble writer wishes to express my heartfelt congratulations. Seeing your name highlighted for this award is such a great way to start the year, Looking forward to reading more of your works in 2024 Jason
I love this one. It speaks to the feelings of abandonment so well. Good job!
I felt this one.
dark and relatable, I loveee it
Very dark, but very powerful at the same time. Good writing!
It's so dark but so honest and emotional like someone who just didn't get to say their peace for a while and then can't hold back anymore. Really like it thanks for sharing :)
Putting emotion into words is one of the really challenging things to write- you did it magnificently
Very relatable. Excellent work.
I love writing that makes me look up words… :-D
This poem hits hard today... It's so relatable for me and such a heartbreaker! But I find comfort in knowing that I'm not alone in these feelings!! The line about being a shapeshifting puzzle piece hit e real hard, that's such an ADHD thing to do... to be the people pleaser we were raised to be! Another great piece!
Oh, this is wonderful, you are talented. Boundaries…this person’s tales scream for some boundaries. Keep up your beautiful writing. I love how you put definitions at the end.
A deeply emotional read!
Aw, dear friend, this was so moving and relatable ...so much emotion in this. Your poems are always so deep and compelling. You have the gift of making the reader feel 🥹❤️ Sending hugs to you 🥹❤️❤️❤️