Ellipsism

Nobody can hear a scream in the vacuum of space Or so they say Within the depths Of star-scattered galaxies Floating in this aeonian void Her screams were all that I could auralize Amplified a million times Attained crescendo My mind tormented me with all her screams Her scream of ebullience When I returned home after several months Her scream of incredulity When I said I'm leaving again on another mission Her scream of denial When I told her how long I'll be gone Her scream of devastation When I said I might not survive to return to Earth Her scream of agony When I bid her farewell The loop repeated continuously A never-ending cacophonous mantra Incipient epiphany Do I need this pyrrhic victory? Is my mission worth losing her? Losing me? Losing us? Isn't there a panacea for this? I reminisced our halcyon Our propinquity I'm unable to handle this anymore A scream of anguish left my throat I'm glad it cannot travel through vacuum Because I wouldn't want her to hear me perish Cerebrally Corporeally Permanently