its just me
walls closing in
screams after screams
no one hears me.
its just me
stuck in this place
I can't escape
all I feel is pain.
melodies and trumpets
play in my head
selling me a dream I wish was reality instead.
fallacious thoughts
nailed into my head
keep me believing that my life and dreams are dead
alone in this room
tears fall from my eyes
I have gotten lost in a society's disguise
alone in this room
there is just me
but I don't know who I am
or how I even came to be.
or what will become of me.
ALONE.
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Mirror
I'm scared to look in the mirror and see the truth. See the shattered reflection staring back at me. See the pain of the young boy that was never healed. The fear of a teenager that was instilled. The mistakes of an adult that won't go away. I'm scared to look in the mirror and see the truth. See the truth of a failing man. Failing at love, family and friends. Failing at jobs, hope and dreams. I've failed all my life so what makes me think now I can succeed. That after all these years I can find the real me and fly like the dove I was suppose to be. For 25 years I been failing and now I'm searching for an answer, searching for the truth. Because I feel that there has to be more to this life than working a 9 to 5 staying black and waiting to die. There just had to be more to life and more to me. I don't want to be that shy little boy scared of society. Holding on to the anger that my life gave me. Holding on to the screams of father beating mother, uncle on top of me and kids bullying me. I don't want to hold on to the tears I cried night after night. Or the suicide thoughts that haunt my life. There has to be more because when I look in the mirror all I see are the broken pieces of a man. Trying to glue it all back together but no matter how much glue I use the cracks are still there. The pain, hate and hurt is buried so deep that they will follow me to my grave. And I will still be scared to look in the mirror and see the truth
By Marquan Nesbitt7 years ago in Poets
Time for #2
This is the second article on my review of the ideas in The Four Agreements. Here's the first article: I knew that I'd move forward with this series, but I put it off as Agreement #2 is a big stumbling block for me. I'd like to say I decided to get out of my own way and thus wrote this, but that isn't the truth. (Since Agreement #1 is to Be Impeccable with Your Word I surely need to own up to that)
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