i have no plans anymore
at least none that i call my own
no more lines. no more maps
nothing else to be shown
i have no direction at all
my compass points me to lost
i have paid through the nose dearly
yet the value negated the cost
no more battles to fight
no more need to take flight
as i drive with no headlights
into this new endless night
drifting rudderless on an anxious sea
of unseen tomorrows and dreams
reality laps at both bow and stern
and this everything is not as it seems
teetering at the edge of my own abyss
my gaze cast both inwards and out
and every single next breath of mine
is a gift so i’ve no need to shout
my fiction is fractional
a variance of degrees
and now, at this point in my life
i’d like to do as i please
i wanna wake up and say fuck it
i’m gonna go back to bed
i wanna say STOP to the noises
that constantly rage in my head
i want to wake to no expectations
of myself and also from you
ensuring everything else for ever
is just something different to do
i can’t see the future
i want to forget some of the past
because i don’t know how much longer
ANY of this will last
i can’t see the after
i do not know what it brings
roll a dice, flip a coin, trust the gods
and let go of ALL useless things
.
boomshanka
Comments (4)
This was so intense, poignant and relatable. Loved your poem!
This is beautifully melancholy. And relatable in a way. Who knows where to go from here?
Great writing, as always.
Super melancholy!!! Left some love!!!❤️❤️💕