~ A Girl named Blue!~

I don't want to be haunted by you

I don't want to be haunted by that kiss,

I don't want to be haunted by that physical desire

Of your hands touching me,

And mine touching you.

I don't want to be haunted by the look in your eyes

I don't want to be haunted by you never looking into mine,

I don't want to think about or know about the missing pleasure

of the experience that is like drinking fine Red wine,

In the peacefulness of a romantic

Late night evening.

I don't want to be reminded

About what was mine

But isn't anymore,

I don't want to think about

What didn't happen on the other side

of that apt door?

I don't want to be haunted

By the thoughts of your never coming around,

I don't want to be haunted

About what I learned,

Finding answers I didn't know

God said I was looking for?

It's hard enough now, how I have to learn to live

Without you around me,

But still inside me and around me

Whether I like this gift of grace or not.

It's hard enough to have to fight the urges

Over all that has gone wrong

It's to easy to give in to sin,

It's to easy to let it all go

Just drop out of life,

And run for the drugs again

Because of knowing where to go,

The struggle is Real

Staying clear of the escape...

Oh how easy it would be

To just fill on all those blanks

To justify this time,

It's my turn

To let the World know

To leave me the hell alone?

But I don't get the luxury

I don't get that break,

Instead I have to find a way

To fight to Live

And put it out of my mind,

How you couldn't even find it in yourself

Your time,

To take me out for a coffee date

Or a walk somewhere

So we could learn to actually talk,

One to another

And see if we could Fair things out?

Instead of them always remaining

The way that they are.

So please...

This time

If you don't mean what you say,

If you don't mean what your trying to convey

If you don't mean to do anything kind,

Then please

This time,

Just leave me alone

It's not my fault you never learned

How to pick up the phone,

In all that time

When I was dancing around you

Doing all that stupid stuff,

Trying to let you know

Help you see

What was meant for you,

All those years ago when it started

From some very cute,

Eccentrically, Unique

Suicidal Punk Girl,

Named Blue!

I've grown so much in the years

I've been alone,

Regardless of what I've witnessed and come to understand

Has remained the same,

And I want to remain FREE of the torment now

So while I'm around

You'll have the choice,

You can come find me

So we can talk,

Or you can stay away

And just live in the dark

About what for you remains unknown,

Truth that never saw the light of day

Where justice could have had its way,

That explains a measure

of why we never drew together,

But had a wedge of distance

Caused by a code of honor

That lies within us,

And those who knew!

So come find me if you dare

But beware

If you stop,

And choose to leave me alone

(that I'm used to)

This story and it's truth

Will someday still be told,

And finally unfold

And I won't be sorry,

When that time comes

For the decades its already

Been left at bay!

On that day

And with these words

Raymond,

I'm setting FREE

The Haunting...

Of YOU AND ME!

The End!

Written by,

Jennifer..

The Girl named Blue! :-)

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