Where do I begin?

Where do I begin ?

A question we often ask ourselves . Not that my story is important but I think some of us have come across this point in life where you actually sit down in a calm and relaxed space and really ask yourself , where do I begin? How do I start? Wait who am I ? What can I do? What do I really want in life or for myself ? This was me back in 2019. We all remember Covid-19 where everything was just on hold and reality just hit.

Most people have already discovered their purpose as for me I was still not sure what mine was . To be honest I still wonder what it is until this day, crazy right ? I’ve read a lot of self help books and even watched a lot of personal development videos , famous people like napoleon hill, bob proctor , Myron Golden, Robert kiyosaki . I’m sure you’ve heard those great names before . I admired all of them and wanted to become a legend like them . I wanted to be successful like them. Yet there was something in me that we call procrastination. I always start something but I never seem to finish it . Is there something wrong with me ? I’ve asked myself this question a lot of times . Am I not good enough? Why do I start a course and never finish it? Why aren’t my results changing? Maybe I am doing something wrong . Lately I’ve been asking God these questions cause I seem to be very lost when it comes to creating the life I actually want.

I had never read the Bible before and yet this man called Dr. Myles Munroe appeared on my YouTube talking about the kingdom of God . That we are supposed to seek the kingdom of God First, before anything else we desire in life and everything we want shall be added or given to us . Well that seems pretty easy right ? To believe and to seek something we can’t see is for most people impossible . As for me , when I heard the story of Jesus Christ I instantly believed this , man I even cried . Just imagine you believe you are the son of God and tell people this, they start mocking and bullying you and even crucifying you . That seems like a pretty sad story . I could find myself in this story because I often feel like I’m not of this world . It’s like I’m from another world where everything seems to be so perfect . No hate, no jealousy, no anger, no stealing, no lying , no killing , just pure love , peace and endless prosperity.

Doesn’t that sound like the perfect life to you ? A life where there is no crime, no heartbreaks , no one lying , cheating or hurting you?

Even if this seems like a fairytale store I choose to believe this . I’d rather imaging a perfect life and come across as one of those ‘crazy’ people . After all , all good stories come across as crazy when you first tell it to someone because it beyond their imagination. Vision comes from God to the person who is meant to manifest that big idea. 💡

I hope my story inspired someone today , what I want to give you as well is keep believing in yourself and trust that God is the truth, the beginning and the end of this all. You got this ! Even if no one believes in you , even if I don’t know you YET I believe that everything you desire shall come to pass. I believe in you !

With Love 💕 , Mandy Bijlhout