Trickles in life

I curated my thoughts slowly . Mindfully trying to keep my thoughts clear and positive . Keeping my mind in a state that is as serene as I am . Outwardly I’ve been loud and rambunctious but internally as the lake . Quietly trickling down the stream. The inner self versus the mind as it feels caged and overwhelmed. The precedence , please don’t judge me. My inner dialogue much louder than the feeling inside . Slowly getting out of stagnancy to feel something much brighter much more kind . Feeling more balanced everyday that I start to realize, what is today? What can I not accomplish ? The answer an astoundingly wonderful everything I can accomplish everything if I so desire . If I have the thought to do so . I can accomplish anything and so can you . The moment we have to make our dreams come true is our life . Our whole life amid the challenges and differences we can make anything happen .

Sometimes I remind myself . I remind me of the pure joy that accomplishing each check mark off my list the value it adds to me. The accomplishment, aka feeling , accomplished by the sticker on a piece of paper. Which in turn tells me , good job April , you did it ! All without changing the mainframe of the simplicity of really how easy . It will be easy to accomplish everything I want . In due diligence I will have a badge in a notebook with every thing I accomplished . Happily and estoically triumphed. The beautiful goals I write down in ink and parchment .

The beautiful sticker I add to the paper happily . So cute with glitter and sparkles shining like pearls that have just been cleaned. All while simultaneously a warm feeling creeped inside of my heart . Like I just ate a vegan apple pie with a delicious cup of vegan cocoa, and dandy marshmallows . A frilly placemat underneath with flowers . And me wearing lace gloves like Lana del ray while fancily dressed. One pinky out while the vibes were very Lilly depp rose. Nostalgia creeping over while I listen dnce and think of what a great year that was. I saw dnce at Busch gardens that year and it felt electric I loved it so much . Joe Jonas right in front of me wearing a storm trooper mask . What a life I live to say I’m less than blessed would be untrue . To say I’m anything less than thrilled to see my life play out . That Would no longer be true . I love myself now , I have faith in me now . Who is this curator this amazing human who has faith even this late in life. Life for me will be long, happy, and full of blessings .

The best things in life continue and continue . Like a Ferris wheel all the way to the top . Like head in the clouds but I never come down. I’m so happy and I believe in myself . What a time for me to be alive . To be ready and not just live but thrive . Thrive and grow letting it come full circle to what it always was supposed to be . Never allowing myself to stop a continuous cycle of me going forward and creating . Being more brilliant and knowing even more about me how was it even possible? How can I even figure out more spaced out with time . In space and life growth to the possibilities of where I’ll be in the future.