My life has been changing since i started to understand things. My school life was good until i end up with a poor result. I always knew, there is no other way than having a good result, especially in my situation all i need is a huge amount of money. I been through a tough time from my very begging of my life mentally, physically, and wealthy as well. i always used to dreamt about having a luxury life but i never thought to reach that stage i have to go through such a hard ways. in this part of my life, i don't care much about my future cause i am still dying to figure out my present life.
Now a days, i am having some strange feelings such as happy in day time and end up crying at bad time every single day, however i still consider myself as a happy one although i am not. i don't know weather i will be happy in my lifetime or not but i still believe , my sun will rise one day and it will help me get over all the darkness of my life. well its a luxury wish but yeah why not give a try as long as it gives me a short time happiness. people say every one has bad time in their lifetime, but nobody says that some people has a lifetime with a unlimited of bad time. May be i am one of them, at least so far i am part on this darkness.
From my situation there is only one way of get back to truck is getting rich, which is something i don't think of anymore. Its not a good thing to see myself as a saddest person in the world but i can't help it anymore. In my childhood, i used to look at other people and judge weather they are happier that me or not it used to give me some happiness when i could find saddest people than me. But now i know i was fool back then, i am not gonna lie that i am not anymore but it has changed its levels, and i believe i am stupidest than even in my entire life time. But this does not bother me anymore as i learned to be happy even when i am losing some useless tears without even realised.
Even, i been through such a hard time in my whole life i am not gonna say that i didn't achieve anything. i have learned so many things in my life time and it gonna help me throughout my entire life, as i still have lot to do and i am very confident that i will find even harder challenges in my upcoming life journey and i am ready to meet them. i am sure my previous failure will definitely help me over come those deadly challenges.
I hope somehow i will end up in winning side cause i cant take this weight of fear anymore. i wanna see the sun rising in my own sky and shinning all over and leading way to success what i deserve. life is a task few do well and few does not. However, every participate learn something which helps them to do well in the very next step. i believe in this philosophy and i am doing my best to learn from every single opportunity i have. Deep down in my heard i know one day i will be a successful person and i will be counted in this very large world.
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