I remember like clockwork it's my 15th birthday and exactly at 6 pm my cycle begins
And just as quick I remember being placed on depo Provera
I remember the changes I went through physically but also mentally
The weight gain and increased appetite
I've had stretch marks since then and somehow I convinced myself that men were supposed to be fat and women were supposed to be skinny
I was taught that not only was my complexion too dark my body was never enough
I remember being told that its a shame to have stretch marks and not have kids
15-25 were the most conflicting year's of my life
Torn between the little person I used to be and the woman I was forced into becoming
For year's it hung over my head that men were supposed to be fat so with no valid explanation as to why I began to try to change myself
I tried everything I could think of to lighten my complexion, lose weight and get rid of these unsightly stretch marks
I wore long sleeves and jackets to cover up my body and these hideous scars
My saving grace was attending college and learning that stretch marks are normal
I could begin to breathe and relax into being Cymphony
I could relax and not always cover up to appear perfect
I learned more about birth control and the long term effects it has on your body
I accepted me in my entirety and I could begin to heal
26-30 have been a constant experiment to learn to love, trust and respect my body as the temple she is
And I owe it all to science
Long before I knew of apothecary, herbalism, and homeopathy I felt that my life was purposed for something greater
And so is yours 💚
The moral of the story is we all have a dream even if it's birth from thoughts, feelings, and pain of our past
We are blessed with those reminders so that we can begin to heal and help others to heal
Growing up when asked what I wanted to be when I grew up I didn't have the logical response that most five-year-olds have
When asked what my career choice was I proudly responded I want to make people smile
Not out of duty or obligation but because I knew then what young Cymphony is teaching me now
That it's not about who you think you're supposed to be or who others tell you you’re supposed to be
Yet it's how you show up in spaces
How complete and whole you are and not who you pretend to be
No matter the masks
How you treat yourself sets the tone for those around you
I didn't know then that I would be a self-care coach but it has brought me so much healing and truth helping myself and others journey back to center
THIS JOURNEY IS NOT ABOUT BEING PERFECT BUT UNDERSTANDING THAT YOU A PERFECTLY DESIGNED AND NOTHING AND NO ONE CAN CHANGE THAT
NOT EVEN YOU‼️
About the Creator
Cymphony Thompson
I am a Self-Care Coach who helps millennials create intentional holistic self-care routines. Inspiring others to "fill their own cups" is what motivated me to create my own self-care movement.
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