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We are made to go through somethings, and it is not going to make sense all the time, but we must make every effort to turn every situation into a good one because if we make every situation a bad one then nothing will ever get better. Do not get me wrong, everything is not going to be good all the time but to stay in a good head space we must make things better and not focus on the world and what something could have been. There are going to be people that are going to rub you the wrong way and all we can do is pray for them because they do not understand what they do but that is not going to stop them from doing things to you.

For us to be a better us we must step back and look at our surroundings, we must open our eyes so we can see what we look like to ourselves and if there is something needing to be fixed, we must fix it and not be ashamed of the decision that we make.

“I went through so many things I can’t explain them all but what I can say is I looked at the person looking back at me, and I did not like what I saw and so even though life happened for me I did what I had to do for me to become a better person. Now that I have done what I had to do for me I can now look at myself in the mirror and say I like who I am becoming. Yes, I have my days, some are good, and some are not so good, but I keep going each day and I get strong every time.

I am letting my emotions go and it feels good. I am starting to realize that when I went into depression because that is what the doctors called it, I would not describe that as my emotion but a breakthrough not so much a break down because I am still standing breathing alive and able to see my two beautiful girls grow up. You see I did not allow my situation to break me, but I allowed it to help me and by allowing myself to acknowledge that I needed help I took the tools they gave me, and I used them and for that I am seeing a new me growing and becoming stronger than ever before.

Now that I have said all of what I have said.... I am about to say more. Going to a mental hospital may not be for everyone and even though I said I am not crazy going to a mental hospital any hospital does not say you are crazy it simply says that “I am a person in need of guides, and I need some lessons to make me understand what I am feeling and answer the why? Because you just do not have all the answers, so you need professionals to give you those lessons to build you up. Going to sit and talk to someone that is not related to you is not bad, the saying goes if you make it bad, so it is.

In conclusion, I have started to write down my understanding of what I had to do for me, and even though I will have some not so good days I am going to keep reminding myself that I am strong enough to go through what I went through and if someone ever ask me, I will say it worked for me and it is still working for me. Find what works for you and build from there.