What Goes Un-Said!!!
Things said that most won’t talk about or admit.
33, diagnosed with bipolar, single mother of 2, full time job but still....
Have you ever woke up and said ‘hey shit has to give’? Well here it is my truth!
I’m a single mom of 2 been through it all, I have my own home, vehicle and a good steady job, but still things aren’t what or where I would like it to be. Dating life.. forget it. I don’t want sex I want longevity, I want strength, sucurity, and honesty!!! Is that hard to give? Everyone would say No but here I am giving my all and guess what I’m the one always getting the messed up end of the stick! If I’m loyal, supportive, an awesome mom and a good woman Why can’t I just get what I give??
People always say it’ll come just have patience well screw that either I have it or I don’t I’m still cool. But than here are those who say ‘don’t feel like that’ why shouldn’t I? Really why shouldn’t I say screw it... I have myself and my 2 awesome kids who I’d give the world to and Yes I do it by myself! 24/7 no breaks no nothing and I damn sure don’t do no complaining. I just want to have someone to hold me at night and perhaps do things with. What about Intimacy?? Can I have that lol.
I don’t want to keep dating that shits hard!!! I mean really who wants to keep getting to know a new person, who wants to keep telling there pain and past history? I dislike the dating scene because it’s to much to keep opening up just to be let down or disappointed. But I can sit and watch people pretend that they’re really ok with it. Not me I’m over it. I’d rather sit home clean my house, laugh and spend time with my kids before I just jump off the ledge for a stranger who claims “oh I got you” or “I’m not going anywhere”. Pathetic individuals who only have hidden agendas and motives. What’s wrong with being single and Celibate? Have people just gotten so caught up and ok with settling because they don’t want to be alone???
Well forget that, I want to be me if you can’t except me for me than no need for you to be here. Right! Well here’s how what led me to this point sit back grab your wine and hold on to your wig. Lol
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About the Creator
Tywonda Petty
33, single mom of 2, has her own, speak my mind not afraid of appropriate criticism. Always want to learn, achieve new things, not looking for sympathy I want my life story to be heard. I say what most will not and I Love speaking the Truth
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What Goes Un-said
Chapter 2 My whole life I’ve dated 15 guys and out of those 15 I’ve had 4 serious relationships, each lasted between 2-5 years. Now for some reason I always felt the need to be very supportive, whether it’s to help them get on their feet, achieve career goals or educational goals, sometimes even handle tough family situations. I was that go to person for whatever the case may have been. I used to believe that if gave 100% from the beginning I’ll get it in return, well that was not the case for me. I was getting played, used, abused mentally, physically and emotionally and never even received a thank you or an apology smhlol. I mean I was really out here allowing these assholes to walk all over me like I was a doormat, and use my past pains and childhood damage against me. I didn’t know any better back then, I really believed from watching others and tv that a good relationship has to go through hell before it could see heaven. My thoughts were that if I just dealt with all the Bullshit and accepted all the lies, eventually they would see that I’m here and I really did love them and wanted us to work! Yeah right... I never knew that what I was putting myself and my heart through wasn’t love at all, it was toleration, it was me choosing to stay with him just because I didn’t want to be alone or because I had no-one or nowhere else to go.
By Tywonda Petty4 years ago in Humans
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