love

Love? Whats that..?

i remember as a child i would ask what love was. How you knew that you were in love or that someone loved you the way that you wanted to. Well, for those still asking that question imma try and help you out. If a song comes on the radio or through your youtube playlist and only one person comes to your mind and you think about a situation that all you can do is smile at it.

That is love.

If your with some one and even though you have been busting your ass all day and your girl or guy has been sitting down all day cause he or she doesnt feel well and even though your dog tired you still cook a dinner. Because all you want is to just see them smile.

That is love.

When you can sit there and talk to your partner and when your so used to being yelled at or hurt because of something that happened in your past and you get scared when they reach up to you quickly but find out shortly after that they are pulling you into an embrace to show you that they understand and are not mad at you even though you were saying horrible things.

That is love.

I could sit here and give you all the examples in the world that i can think of right now and tell you what looks like. But, truthfully, love is a feeling.

A feeling of happiness.

A feeling of peace.

A feeling of safety.

A feeling of stubility.

it all changes from person to person. Unfortunately nothing is ever black and white. like we want them to be. Sadly there are always these grey areas, areas where you will never be sure if it is or isnt.

but i can tell you that the actions of you and your partner will help you see if it is love and not a manipulation.

And really the manipulation game has become stronger. And, sadly harsher.

i know that if you feel confused a lot, like your alone even though he is there with you, that if he even tries to hurt you and then says they are sorry and try to make you think they still love you after something horrible they had done.. Its not true love. You have to keep thinking always thinking a head and that is not always something that has to happen all the time when your with some one.

Love is a double edged sword both beautiful and confusing. It always has been and always will be. But, i can tell you that if you have ever gotten that feeling of your done go with it. Leave. make yourself better and learn to give the little girl or boy that is in you scared and alone the love that they deserve.

we are never going to be perfect to our selves but to the one that is really wanting you you will always be perfect no matter how much you fuck up.

stay safe out there you lovely beasties. cause even though your alone or feel alone. you have to remember that no matter what your good enough, your strong enough, crying is not a weakness you have been so strong for far to long and some times its good to be able to do that.

Not every thing you do is wrong. life is always about decisions and how you look out on life.

(( thank you for reading this and thank you for the love and support.))