F^ck the Three loves

Over our course of life, we come into contact with many people. All of which have a purpose. Some more important then others. Some are meant to teach us lessons and some are just meant to come into our lives for a good laugh. Over the course of our lives we have many relationships as well. Some will hurt us, some won't. Some will make us happy and some will make us crazy. Sometimes we'll even fall in love with people. With that being said there are 3 loves that could happen over the course of our lives each with a special meaning and purpose.

Your first love usually happens when you're young, it's sweet, sappy and all those feelings. It's really cute actually, they may even be your first kiss or your first time. You may have plans to spend forever with them and sometimes you do! You also may not spend forever with that person and that's okay too. If it ends your devastated. Your first breakup is intense. It's painful. You've never experienced this before. It's your first heartbreak. It's difficult. But rest assured years down the road you'll look back and smile. You'll appreciate what that relationship was and what it taught you. It taught you what you deserve. It taught you what love feels like. It taught you what heartache feels like. It taught you what having a crush feels like. It's a very important relationship.

Your second love is intense. Your second love comes with abuse, betrayal and all the wrong things. This one hurts alot. You feel so powerless. It's terrible. It changes you and makes you feel absolutley gutted. I can't really say much else other then it will teach you what you don't deserve in a relationship. It will teach you what you shouldn't tolerate and what an unhealthy relationship feels like. This one may take years to heal from. This one may cause you to have to go to therapy. (No shame in therapy by the way) This one may traumatize you a bit as well. You may even swear off love forever when this one ends. You may not feel like you deserve love or even to be loved. You feel like you aren't worthy of being in a relationship. You'll feel so broken and you'll have to spend a lot of time rebuilding yourself. It's a difficult one.

Your third love comes with no notice whatsoever. They come into your life when you aren't looking or even wanting to fall in love. They just enter your life. No butterflies, nothing. But slowly but surely they break down your walls and it feels okay. It feels safe. It may scare you and you may push back out of fear. But they won't leave. They'll understand. They'll be patient with you. They'll hold you through your worst. They'll listen to you talk about how shitty your ex was and how much they traumatized you. They'll be there for you. But more importantly over everything else, they'll teach you why it didn't/couldn't work out with anyone else. They'll teach you why you had to go through all that pain. They'll teach you why you had to rebuild yourself after having your heart cracked open like a walnut. They'll understand why you had your reservations in the past. But they won't leave. They won't. They won't hurt you and they'll know how to work with you at your worst. They'll understand why you may not trust them in certain situations. And most of all they'll be yours, all yours and only yours.