Dear Best Friend

by Liliana Moreno 7 months ago in friendship

Why would you do that to me?

Dear Best Friend

We became total strangers at the age of 14 and at the age of 15. Plus, you kept all my secrets with you. You have all my secrets that I didn’t tell anyone, except you. I don’t know if I can trust you anymore. What happened to us. It hasn’t been easy for me because I miss you more than ever and I want to say thank you best friend for being there for me at some point. For being present in my life. Now, we don’t even talk to each other anymore. Not a call nor a text. But why did you stop talking to me? Why did you leave so quickly? I have so many questions that aren’t even answered, but who’s going to answer these questions if you're gone? One thing I’m sure about is that it wasn’t your intention to hurt me. But you did! I can’t believe my own best friend would hurt me. Not once nor twice. But three times!

Three times in a row. I always think to myself how could you be my best friend? A best friend doesn’t hurt you. A best friend is always there for you. Sometimes, you would disappear out of nowhere and you wouldn’t tell me where you were at. You didn’t give me a text saying that “oh, I’m sorry for not calling you or texting you, I was busy,” you never ever said that to me. I would always think to myself that it was my fault that you didn’t ask me. How could you make me feel like this way? It wasn’t my fault. It was your fault I would always text you but no response but I’m getting ahead of myself I’ll tell you a few things but it’s going to hurt me but it’s true.

Dear best friend, you made me feel like crap at some point. You want to know why? Because you always would pick someone else and leave me just here. Wondering to myself what did I do to him to feel this pain? Whenever you had a girlfriend you would leave me. Just because you loved her more than your best friend. But let me tell you something, a best friend is always going to be there for you no matter what happens in life but not a girlfriend. A girlfriend is just there for a few weeks or months but at the end of the day, she’s going to break up with you because she lost feelings for you or even worse, she never loved you. Whenever she broke up with you, oh boy, you went back to me. I was so stupid of myself going back to you and being best friends again but I wasn’t listening to people. They were saying to me that “You shouldn’t be his best friend anymore because he left you here hurting and what if he hurts you again?” But of course, my little head didn’t listen at all what people were saying.

I simply was your best friend again. Three times in a row you hurt me. You went back with your ex. You left me here crying and every time she broke up with you, you went back to me again. I was just a rebound. I was just there whenever you were feeling sad. You came to me, but whenever you were happy, you just left me again. After a few months past, I never spoke to you again. My life is better now without you. I still think about the things you’ve done to me but I don’t hate you. I wish the best for you and whenever you come back to me again, don’t think that I’m going to be your best friend then again. Goodbye, old friend.

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Liliana Moreno

I been through a lot and I need my voice to be heard. I putting my stories in your hands.

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