I know I’ll come back. I made a promise. After I left her once, we didn’t text right? Well I decided to text her. Everything was good. Since that moment we texted, I knew everything was going to be okay with her. Catching up on our lives was beautiful, since we wasted three months not knowing what we are doing with our lives. Then I ask her:
Here we go again with this process. Here we go again with the heartbreak you’re doing to me, mother. That I can’t be with her because it’s prohibited to see her. But it hurts me so much that’s your taking her away from me. What else are you gonna take? You have no idea how much I’m suffering. For once in my lifetime, I’m actually happy with someone I love; but clearly you don’t want that from me because she’s the same gender as me. I’m not going to say who. Look, she means so much to me. You just can’t do that to your daughter. You can’t just take her happiness like that. Why would you do that? I’m not allowed to text her. I’m not allowed to see her; therefore, to make that even simpler and easier, you took her out of my 15. How am I supposed to feel about that? I feel sad, and disappointed in you, mother. I mean, sure, I can still see her. Hug her. Tell her much she means to me, but of course you took away that from me, too. You say you want me to change, so that’s why you’re taking me to a psychologist. But, if that doesn’t work, you’re taking me to a church retreat so I can change my mind. No, mother! I don’t want to change an any way. I like being who I am. I like that I get to be with a guy, but if that doesn’t work, I get to be with a girl. You’ll never understand, so that’s why you’re taking me to those places I don’t even want to go? Like you say, I need help. Not necessarily, because this is who I am. I’m not crazy at all. You think that girl is making me change. That she’s putting thoughts in your mind. No, mom, this is who I want to be, but I can see you’re doing things to make me stop loving her.
We left off where I gave him a hug. Did you think that would be the ending of this lovely story. Once I hugged him tight, he hugged me tighter than anyone has before. This lasted for a few minutes. At this moment, another boy stepped into my life. Let’s not get to that point right now. We will say his name is Andrew. He wanted to challenge me in who’s stronger. I accepted his challenge and we started pushing each other to the ground, and whoever falls to the ground first, loses. Luckily, I didn’t fall to the ground. Of course he did. Maybe he was playing soft just to see me happy that I won over him, but that didn’t matter to me. I was having a great time with him, but then, someone showed up...
Yes, I’ll agree that finding someone is hard. It’s pretty challenging. It’s hard finding a person with great characteristics or great qualities that you want. Someone that is loyal or faithful. But, sometimes you don’t get what you want. You need to earn it. It’s like earning someone's trust. I’ll say it takes time to find that person that is going to make you happy. But, once you find that person you want to be with, you will never let go of him or her, because you don’t want to lose them. Even if you do, don’t let that get inside of you. If it doesn’t work out, you move one and start fresh. Yes, it might happen many various times. Don’t let that stop you. So where am I going through this? You may ask; is she going to write a story about this. Well, yes indeed. Hear me out.
The human touch. We need it so dearly. The feeling of your partner is what we need so much. The feeling of your loved one is one of the things that keeps us alive. So, what happens when you lose your soulmate, your loved one, or even your best friend? Don’t you feel sad, lonely, or even depressed? That you won’t love someone as you did before.
If you want to leave, the door is right open, but let me tell you something you're not coming back if you leave.