“Sit down, Mr. Miller,” I said, without looking up from the screen of my laptop.

White? Name things that are White?

I still get views on my last entry about this topic. I also get questions about it. So much so I decided to do this follow up.

I'm not the kind of person to overshare. Nor am I the kind of person that usually spills tea about intimate details. But here I am, trying to explain to all that are interested in my journey through womanhood and all the wattpad fantasies that both fascinate but also scare us.

I think we should talk about humiliation today. Humiliation is a kink that involves a dominant person humiliating their submissive. There are many ways to do this. Some Masters and doms will draw on their submissive face or body with marker or pen dirty words or humiliating names. Others will make the submissive call themselves humiliating things, wear humiliating clothing that the submissive has to wear in public or even around the house, make the submissive clean while they are naked or do something else that is humiliating to the submissive. It can be very fun and kinky if you do it right.

It was a late night.

Every day. I sit next to the door just like i am told to.

CNC. Consensual non-consent. This means that the person on the receiving end is consenting to participate in Acts mostly revolving around rape play or seemingly illegal Acts. Of course they are not actually illegal because it is consensual and both people involved have already went over rules and safe words with each other. If they haven't this can be very dangerous. If you are doing CNC and you do not have a set safe word and you have not talked about it beforehand, you won't know when they're acting like they're hurt or something is wrong or if they actually are. Remember that safety is the number one priority. You do not want to start something like this without both people agreeing to it and knowing exactly what is going to happen and what's going on.

The phone rings.

Knife play is one of my favorite things when it comes to foreplay or BDSM. While it is very fun and exciting, it can also be pretty dangerous. This is why it is in the edge play category along with blood play and anything else that could hurt someone if not done right. Lets go over what knife play entails.

Time.....

Submission is not the easiest thing to do for people such as me, a control freak, still I was willing to try. The hardest part for me was not doing what I was told, I can handle that, it was having to not take the lead. I get off on the simplest of things and being the boss is the best thing to me. I can almost orgasm from hearing myself tell someone what to do to please me. “Don’t Stop!” “Harder, faster!” and my favorite “Please baby please!” never tend to get old. My experience was short lived but still long enough to know that it was not for me. Which is weird since I am a people pleaser and in all honesty I definitely was turned on enough to try again. Now I’m curious to know if I could get out of my head that I don’t like it. The most important thing to me is the person who I’m being submissive for. Same as when I’m being dominant because I can’t take on that role with everyone. My first time as a sub , my partner knew exactly what he wanted for me to do and was assertive without being aggressive. I could have very easily made to feel ashamed or scared .