Saying I love you as a joke

I'm the valentine you've always wanted and there is nothing like me, but I have a valentine who's been misbehaving. I'm annoyed that my boyfriend keeps saving the nudes I send him. Snaps are supposed to stay like images burnt into your mind. They're not supposed to be an album for you. I told him I didn't want them saved but he doesn't listen and I love him too much to end it. I don't like the stupid videos he sends me back. I don't know how to tell him that they're not exciting. It's all about me. He thinks I'm selfish. I don't mean to be selfish- it's how I was created. I'm submissive but not subservient. I think he's annoying when he doesn't hear me. I can't bring myself to end it, especially on Valentine’s Day, because I'm addicted to how hot and passionate he feels about me. I broke it off once with him, but he said "please don't go" in so many words. I think I like how he chased me.

He told me the videos are part of who he is and that I am trying to change him sexually. I didn't think I was by telling him to tone it all down a bit, or more than a bit, but he was horribly insulted. I thought we weren't going to work because I go with the flow of the river and he wants to splash and horse around in the river.

Are you talking about the delivery guy again?

To answer your question, the answer is no- it's not the delivery guy. I'm still facing regret over that one. I was shy. I told him I needed help relaxing and he thought that was the most unattractive thing he had ever heard in his life. I wanted him to keep coming over but he didn't like how I liked when people would watch us like animals in the wild. He said it was "off-putting" and wanted me to get into his car and let him drive me away. His defense is that they're not the kind of people who should be or want to be watching us. I reminded him of how they're not watching- they would catch a glimpse and then go away. He didn't try to get to know me, and for that, I can never forgive him. He judged me before he courted me all the way. He must not have thought I was all that interesting. I should've stayed silent, because then no one knows anything about you and they think you're way sexier if you can stay quiet without showing any nervousness whatsoever.

Well who's this guy then if he's not the delivery guy?

This guy is someone I would never, ever go out with personality-wise. He believes the opposite of me in a lot of the important things, but he also has some of the same most important values. I said "I love you" as a joke. He said it was not a joke for him.

What do you want for Valentine's Day?

All I want is for people to tell me they like me and use my photos in some way. I don't want my photos on his phone because then he's not using them. He's not using my photos for what they were meant to be used for- as pillows, as large blown up prints on the wall making the house look modern and elegant. He's not showing me off in his household and I don't like that. What I want for Valentine's Day now is to put on a show for him that's the kind of show I would want him to put on for me.