my confession

In the depths of my solitude, I stand alone,

As the world crumbles, I bear the weight on my own.

A shadow looms, a relentless black cloud,

Chasing me down, in silence, so loud.

To be an outcast, a blessing, a curse,

In this chaotic realm, I traverse.

For every soul I've wounded, I mourn,

From the depths of my heart, I'm torn.

Lost amidst the wreckage, I've gained and lost,

Counting the dues, at an immeasurable cost.

Lord, forgive the lives tainted by my presence,

The hearts shattered, lost in my essence.

They say you reap what you sow,

In this darkness, I feel it grow.

Despite my strength, weakness seeps in,

This life, a cold and lonely spin.

Friendship, family, a love to hold,

In this desolate landscape, they're untold.

Love, a labyrinth, too complex to navigate,

In its grasp, I suffocate.

Trust, a fortress, not easily won,

Yet shattered swiftly, when all's said and done.

For others, I've sacrificed endlessly,

Questioning now, their loyalty.

My mother's words echo, hauntingly true,

My heart too big, in a world so askew.

I've erected barriers, towering high,

Even angels falter, as they try.

A monster, I've become, in my fear,

Molding myself, shedding every tear.

To all the souls I've harmed, I plea,

For forgiveness, as I bend my knee.

God forgives all, they say,

In repentance, I find my way.

So here I lay, burdened and bare,

Seeking redemption, in this prayer.

In the tapestry of mistakes, I'm woven,

Yet in forgiveness, I find hope unbroken.

For every soul, I've wronged, I vow,

To mend the broken, starting now.

In this journey of shadows and light,

I seek solace, in the depths of night.

For in forgiveness, there lies salvation,

A path to redemption, in this revelation.

Amidst the chaos, I roam alone,

A lone wolf in a world overthrown.

In this sick and twisted domain,

I navigate, amidst the pain.

Through the shadows, I silently tread,

Haunted by demons, fears widespread.

The howls of solitude, my only song,

In this wilderness, where I belong.

No pack to call my own, no kin,

In this wilderness, I find solace within.

The moonlight guides, a silver gleam,

In solitude, my soul finds its dream.

Through trials and tribulations, I stride,

In the darkness, where secrets hide.

A lone wolf, fierce and free,

In this world, I find my destiny.

Yet in the silence, a longing stirs,

For connection, for kindred spirits.

But in this wilderness, I find my truth,

Strength in solitude, eternal youth.

A lone wolf, I may forever be,

In this world, wild and free.

But in my heart, a fire burns bright,

A beacon of hope, in the darkest night.

For every heart I've shattered, I weep,

In the depths of regret, I silently keep.

Love, once cherished, now disgraced,

In its wake, my soul displaced.

To my mother, a plea for forgiveness,

For every dream I failed to witness.

I didn't mean to let you down,

In my mistakes, I drown.

To my wife, apologies I extend,

For being difficult, for wounds I've penned.

In the storm of my flaws, I'm lost,

Counting the bridges, at what cost?

To myself, I whisper sorry,

For keeping you in this toxic quarry.

You deserve skies painted with light,

Not shadows veiled in endless night.

So here I stand, in remorse's embrace,

Seeking redemption, in this sacred space.

For every soul I've hurt, I vow,

To mend the broken, starting now.