Invasion of Privacy

My husband and I had been taking a shower while everyone was still home. I haven't been feeling the best so far this morning. So while we were showering my mother in-law is watching us. There was a darkness in her that I never saw. She almost looked angry while watching us.

I'm scared now, I shielded my boobs and covered myself up. Yet I still feel disgusted. I'm so afraid now, to be around her alone. Who knows if she is a nonce. Because by looking at me like that I'm so disgusted I will never look at her the same.

Worse of all how can my husband say stay calm when so many thoughts are going through my mind right now. One of them telling me to run away. To go back to where I was before. Regretting coming back wishing I would have filed for my husband. Wishing I would have kept my car. Wishing I would have just did things so differently. So many thoughts are going throw my mind I just wish I could suppress it to protect myself. This isn't normal, and I don't know how to back from this. I want to win this money so I can file for my husband I want to go back to America find an apartment settle there and just survive. Until my husband comes home. I want to be alone to put myself through therapy again.

I'm using perfect picturesque places to justify that Saint Lucia isn't perfect though it's beautiful on the outside. On the inside, not so much. The time warp isn't normal on the whole human behaviour thing. There are invasions of privacy. Throwing of shade saying when you are living under my roof I can just do anything I want even watch you bath.

This all the more reason I wish I never came back. The only thing I will never regret was coming back for my husband. I regret spending the money, I regret I should have waited, I regret I should have filed for my husband instantly.

There are so many regrets I have right now it's hard to just pick one.

And what do you want to bet that she won't come over here, and try to turn everything around on me asking me what happened to me? Like a typical creeper.

It makes me regret everything, makes me thing everything I thought about her as true. No wonder my sister in-law Coya left the family. Makes me wonder if she did the same shit to her. And she knew that wasn't normal. I wish I could meet Coya, because she sounds like a powerful woman to never put up with that. If that's what happened. I can't really know why she left in the middle of the night.

There is nothing normal about this family. What else is going through that woman's brain. She is so disgusting, this was such a major invasion of privacy I am having flashbacks of everything that has ever happened to me in the past. The invasion of privacy that all of my ex's did to me. Being rapped, being abused, being watched when I never asked for that.

A strange woman watching me fully nude with my husband the look on her face looked so wicked.

I just don't want to be here right now. At this point I Just want to go back to Ohio find a car live in it until I find an apartment.

Feeling her eyeballs staring at me as she walks away purposely. The look of wickedness, and disgust, god this woman is so wicked. I knew my instincts were right about her.

All I have to do is survive this until I have enough money to file for Shane. Then go back to the states. I will work on my business, and have enough money to buy a car. So I can live in that until I can find an apartment or rental house.