I love you, But I Hate you

It’s a rare occasion that you find someone you can tell everything to. It’s a rare occasion that you get each other. This poem is for you, my friend.

I love you but I hate you,

I know it makes no sense

Or no difference to you.

You may not even care, or even give this a stare.

Sometimes I feel like I am invisible to you. Sometimes I feel that I don’t matter. Sometimes I feel like my heart is too big.

Sometimes I don’t feel appreciated, but I will continue to do what feels right to me and my heart.

I love that you’re strong,

I love that you’re my biggest cheerleader.

I love that you always know what to say.

I hate that you’re stronger than I am,

I hate that I can’t be as strong as you,

I hate that sometimes I don’t know what to say

I hate that you have your shit together and I don’t.

I hate that you’re not broken

I hate that you always get to go to the beach.

I hate that sometimes you just don’t want to listen.

I love that we can have space,

I love you for who you are.

I love the way that you can burp twice as long and louder than me.

I love that you’re always there,

I love that you’re like family

I love that your home is my safe place.

I love that I can tell you anything without judging me.

What can I say, you are my hero.

I hate that you’re so far away,

I hate that sometimes I don’t even think you like me.

I hate that sometimes you don’t answer your phone when I need you the most.

I love that you’re beautiful inside and out.

I love that you always know when to make jokes.

I love that you say you’re always here for me.

I love how we talk sometimes like we are In middle school over relationships.

I hate that I sometimes I can’t ever make you feel better.

I hate that I forget how lucky I am to know you.

I hate that we overthink everything.

I hate that we deal with anxiety.

I hate that our life feels like a struggle some days.

I love that we always get each other,

I love that we know when one of us isn’t okay:

I love you but I hate you, but you always love those that mean the most to you.

Always remember you’re worthy, you’re enough, you’re not perfect but you’re strong and always remember you’re enough. & there is always someone looking up to you ❤️

You’re more of a sister to me than anyone else. You were there when everyone walked out. Sometimes I have doubts sometimes I don’t think I’m good enough for you.

I hate that I am overthinking; I hate that some days I feel abandoned. But all in all; I love you but I hate you. You’re my person,

My friend,

My everything in between, my hero; no one has ever impacted my life as much as you have.

If the dictionary would define hero in my own words, it would be you. You’re my Superman; spider man; you’re the one I go to when things are messy. You’re the one I even tell when things start getting salty and spicy.

I love you to the moon and back, my sister; my friend. Even if we never speak again, you will always be my hero and together forever my friend.

Through the darkest days, to the sunniest says, I will always appreciate you and never take you for granted. I love you forever my friend.