25 year old woman. Stay at home mom and engaged to an amazing human being. I love the color blue, animals, and Boston Sports Teams. I’m opinionated, open minded, and sometimes too stubborn even for myself.
My little boy
Bringing a life into the world is beautiful. When becoming a parent everyone tells you to treasure the moments dearly. I never understood why until I became a mother myself. Growing up yourself, it feels like being a child is forever. When you’re 5, you claim you can't wait until you’re 10. When you’re 12, you can't wait to be 16. Once you’re 16, you can't wait until you’re 18 and then 21. Once you hit the 21 year old mark you realize you don’t want to grow up, you don’t want to get older, you want to stay young and go back to when you didn’t have the responsibilities that you now have.
I Just Want To Be Okay
For starters, I know recently it's been tough due to the circumstances that we’ve been encountering. I know that we’ve been trying to work on everything and then it feels like we take 10 steps backwards because of feelings, or because I bring everything up again. I know that the last couple of days, going through everything, has been torturing you. One minute we were okay, the next we were fighting, or the time after that I’m pissed and then you’re upset.
Why is this happening to me
Remember in the beginning when you thought about how everything was “too perfect”? Basically waiting for the “other shoe” to drop?
Losing A Loved One
Remember back in like 2006 (I think), the band Green Day came out with a song named “Wake Me Up When September Ends”? If I could create a remix, it would be called “Wake Me Up When August Ends”.
Entering motherhood, you think its going to be a walk in the park. You believe that you are going to make it through all the obstacles with your significant other. But what happens if you’re doing it alone? What happens if you begin struggling with being a mom because even though you seem good, the stories from others that traumatized you.